A few days to go and 2015 is going to end. I have a new life and it's really a brand new chapter of mine. December? I'm seriously so damn busy and so damn sad. Why? Still remember I have a deskmates? She is not only my deskmates for me, she is my bestfriend, sister, but i don't know what the fuck had happened as she blocked me in all the social medias once we finished our SPM papers. I cried for a whole day because of this. Well, I not dare to even find her and figure out what had happened. I just let it be and I deal with the pain by my own. I really thought I can deal with it but seriously I'm struggling. No matter how busy I am, once I stopped and rest, I think of her automatically. I really can't understand why this could happened. I really don't know. Still remember once I asked her " if I go to form6 and you're not my deskmates, how am I going to survive? " and she answered me " vivian,human need to grow up" yea, now I tried to grow up ,without her. The one who knows you the most always know how to hurt you is the most painful for you. And yea, she did it. If we talked out our problems and solved it, I would never hurt like this and I can easily deal with it, but now, she chose to block me, without letting me to know any reasons. It's seriously so hurtful, but what more can I do? I scared that if I find her to solve the problem, she will ignore me. I wanna to leave Ipoh so damn much and go to another city, but I can't. I scared that I will bump into her one day later when I'm in Ipoh. Everything is going to end, and my deskmate, I really care you so damn much. I never regret to have you in my life. Do you regret to have me in your life?
Friendship can be more hurtful if compare to relationship.