我以为

Erhmmm,假期就这样过完了. 整个假期都在忙,忙着玩.. 就整个假期都没有停过就是了. 然后,终于都开学了. 我应该说开学快乐吗? 好吧,我的确是挺快乐得. 

我以为我以为我以为. 真的有很多很多的我以为. 我以为我不会后悔. 我以为你是真心的. 我以为失去了你没什么大不了. 我以为我对你很重要. 我以为我们真的是朋友. 我以为我们会一直好下去. 我以为我在这一方面够成熟了. 我以为我已经跌过了,而且跌得够重了.  可是原来都不是.

看了那么多我以为,哎, 有时候,我真的太自以为是了. 有些事说要改,却改来改去都改不到. 朋友都叫我多笑,因为我不笑的时候看起来很凶,笑起来平易近人多了. 恩,我笑了. 可是,笑了就是快乐了吗? 笑只是一个表情,真的和快乐无关. 

你说这段关系不比你的尊严重要. 其实换个角度说,是我们根本不重要. 我不知道我在执卓些什么. 我知道握得太紧,会弄疼自己. 我知道破镜不能重圆. 我知道玻璃碎了,不能变回完美不缺. 我想挽回. 可是该怎么做? 路太长,太远. 一个不小心就迷路了. 多希望有个人带着我走. 无忧无虑. 其实挽回了又怎样? 伤口愈合了,还是会有疤痕.

我该怎么做. 太迷茫,却不能倒下. 真的知道该专注读书. 还剩42天,时间真的不多了. 可是我真的读不到. 我很讨厌这样的自己. 真的很讨厌 :')

或許我還欠你一句對不起.對不起自己把關係給搞僵了. 或許我還欠我自己一句對不起. 對不起,又讓自己難受. 對不起,我還放不下. 

唉,考試到了
心情又還沒準備好 :/  :(

my30hourfamine

Tada! :) I'm here again. Today blog about my30hourfamine. An activity that organised by world vision,世界宣明會.

7.++ my friend come my house to fetch me,we meet with Ivan them and eat breakfast together.After that,we go to wan hua er xiao to register. Start to fast from that moment. Erm,the camp is just boring boring and boring. Me and jie ying same group. Others separate with us le. KooYean them 4 people in a group,how syok they are? -___- Well,camp start.

The activity actually not very fun. At least I don't think that is fun larh..:P At there,you can see many people in red shirt. Haha,they all gap mai wear camp tee go,but didn't jio!! Arghhh!! Kay,nvm.JieYing pui me ;D 

Spot me! :D Da he zhao :D:D Our pose is mean that the word '30' I'm not in red shirt :/ sigh ://

Selca when we were waiting for the game.

At night,no water for us to bath. Try to guess what we do? We ponteng out the camp and go AhLam's house bath! Luckily YeeYee bring me,haha,if not i cant bath le.lol We so scare that the school door will close haha,but luckily din. We sleep at the corridor there. So many mosquitoes,cant sleep at all -____-|||

I just sleep jor 1 hour.Hahaha. I don't know why suetyeng jieyeng ziqian them can sleep,because I can't sleep at all. They so geng! :D Then we go to KL for countdown. Reach there at 8am gem. Soo many fight hungers there. Yea,I saw Jimmy Tan,陳吉米. So leng zai,while I told my schoolmates I saw him,no ppl believe me.WALAOEHHHH. I think I saw Stella and Desmond too,but can't confirm is them.

Ziqian,SuetYeng,XinJie and me. While waiting to go in to the stadium. Actually I just know suetyeng in the camp,but we look like know each other very long gem.

Selca with ZiQian.

Selca with JieYing

Selca with SuetYeng

ZiQian,XinJie,JieYing,me

The only selca of me.

When in the stadium,watching the countdown concert. Try to spot me,I'm beside AhTan.

Crystal Lee was on the stage! :D

Last photo of the day!Concert finish.

Really had a lot of fun with them although the camp was boring. We play,chat,joke. REALLY HAD A LOT OF FUN WITH THEM. 

They all look like my family members :)

p/s: Next post will be the things happened at July in my school. Sorry for my broken English :/ tada! :D

我回來了! :D

久違的部落A___A 好啦,我回來了:) 對不起,整個七月都忙著準備預試,所以沒上來更新.各位有關注這裡的,原諒我啊啊 :D

7月還蠻多事發生的,波折連連. 今天先更新trial篇.接下來的應該會關於7月發生的事.

從來沒想過自己壓力那麼大.雖然今年的trial不是統一.但是真的,真的很難很難.難道我無言去.第一天考試,就粗心犯下了一個7歲學生也不該犯的東西.第二天呢,做英文的時候是寫report,然後我竟然沒有寫到format!!我進考場前還一直提醒自己要寫的.結果呢.....好吧,我承認我自己拿來衰.第三天,我寫了華語作文,選了一篇自己不擅長的作文.因為怕自己不夠時間寫,所以我捨弃了那篇我自己擅長的,然後選了完成作文.結果,我還是不夠時間做中楷.交了紙的時候,就開始後悔了.......-___- 那樣也算了,結果我朋友全部問我是不是選哪題,然後我說我選了完成作文,全部就掉眼鏡了....哈哈哈哈,好吧,後悔的球滾得越來越大.......就真的很像殺掉我自己.-.- 然後第四天,整份geo考卷我老師給過我做了,然後我沒有讀到!!!WTF!!!不過老師怎麼這麼厲害,整份東西一點都沒有換-.-然後今天,sejarah,很多都是past year question,然後因為時間的關係,我沒有做完!!這次考試真的是意外連連.然後,可想而知,成績一定很差-____- 

溫習的時候其實還蠻順利的.只是考科學P2那天.我的溫習的心情完全給人破壞了.有人無端端線封信息來.'我們可以談談嗎?我不想我們繼續這樣'.收到的時候,就整個WTF去-___- 心情完全被SPOIL了.好吧,那我告訴你,我們沒甚麼好談的.順便說,我以後都不會那麼笨,那麼輕易交心.那麼輕易把一個人當sister! :) 錯的不是我,我是不會主動道歉的,是你對不起我們先的.我們是人,不是球,不要要利用我們的時候就讓我們滾來,不需要得時候就踢開. 然後朋友wechat我,你跟xxx在一起啊?然後我就說沒有.一直解釋,結果他沒有在信-__-然後過後又問一下很sensitive的話題,erm,是什麽就跳過~~然後我的mood完完全全被破壞了-____-

然後就是地理和數學.那一天我竟然讀到一半媽媽叫我,我就直接跟我媽媽講不要煩我,你很煩 :/ 對不起啊,我是被數學搞到自己sot了,一下子控制不到自己的情緒. 然後就整個冷靜不到,數學就連簡單的加減乘除都做錯,越錯結果自己越煩.唉. 一直以為這次的考試自己沒有壓力,但是原來是自己都沒有想到自己的壓力竟然那麼大.就考math那天突然爆發了 -___- :-(  一開始我還以為是我太steady所以完完全全沒有緊張,但是其實不是,是我把自己逼得太緊了.....

今天是最後一天,一出考場,我們整班就開始zou dut了!muahahahah! :* 整班在那邊喊,'happy holiday','幾時出街?','幾時唱K','幾時sunway'等等.哈哈哈.全部馬來人看著我們,好像使我們過年這樣.lol.就連老師也看著我們,對我們無言了,lol!!!就真的很高興!!然後做van回的時候,整班傻婆又在那邊喊,我們全部在那邊自high!!hooorayyy!!! 沒辦法,考完trial太高興了!!!

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!!

放假了!! :D

p/s:next post will me famine30hour :)