Throwback to the last day of school, I'm the only Chinese in my class went to school. (A girl went to school too, but we seldom talk) I hugged all my teachers and I cried. I never ever thought that I would cry in this school, I hated this school, too much bad memories here. I loved this school, a lot of good memories here, I've grow up a lot at here. I was a Pelajar cemerlang here, I'm not really good in academic, but my school is small, so yea. I was. Anyway, I really hate being a Pelajar cemerlang, I hate a lot. You got nothing with this, but stress, from your friends and teachers. Nobody is there to help as they thought you're good enough and do not need any guidance. When you're good in your attitude and academic, yea, this is what you have to do and you must do, as you're a Pelajar cemerlang. When your results drop a little or never achieve the target teachers set for you, that means you're bad, not hard working enough. They will scold you but not giving you courages, even scold you stupid in front of your face. Heol, I really tried my best to study in my weak subject, but what I get? I'm so fed up and stressed. Well, I have to deal with it because I've no rights to tell teacher I really tried my best. They will not believe me. You thought all the teachers in the school know you and it is good? Nah!!
Friends. Well, a lot of people say that I'm sociable. They say I know a lot of people, but who know all of them are hi-bye-friends. When I need someone to talk to, I scroll my contact list but I have no one to find. Who the hell I can find when I know they just need me when they need help? I really envy and jealous those who have their own friends, movies, singing, hangout, study group, with the same gang of friends. I want these kind of friendship too, but too bad, I have not. It's better I stay alone if you ask me to hangout with the people I truly dislike. I'M TOO TIRED FOR THE DRAMAS. PLEASE GO TO HELL THE DRAMA KINGS AND DRAMA QUEENS.
I'm really feeling so lucky that I was graduated. Of course, I felt sad, I afraid of my future, but I love those challenges. I wanna have a different lifestyle. Who else know I will regret or not, but I need a new environment, I need to go to a place that no one know me and start all over again. Believe me, I'm sure that I will miss my high school life, but not now.
And yea, SPM. Why can't we just finished it in two weeks!?! Why need one month to finish it. I'm struggling. SPM IS REALLY ANNOYING.
BYE, GOOD LUCK FOR SPM.
